What is there left to do when they say they dont want you no more?
What is there left to do but sit and take a moment and think?
Think of it in a different light.
Think about what this exact moment in your life would be like if you were already single.
Would the tv be the same?
Would the show be just as entertaining?
Would you still laugh at the parts that are funny, and cry at the sad parts just the same?
Is watching tv different when in a relationship then watching it with friends or just by yourself?
What is left to feel if they say they cant do it no more?
What is there left to do but to sit and take a moment and feel?
Feel the moments of your life that make you smile and the new ones guaranteed to come in the future.
Feel the moments of your past you were deeply sadden, hurt, angered and you got through it.
Did you not feel love again?
Did you not feel it just the same as before with no care in the world of the past pains of it?
What is left to look forward to when they say you're not good enough anymore?
What is left to do but to sit and picture the future?
Future days of being truly happy, cherished and surrounded by love ones.
Future days where the past and the exact hurtful moment so far behind you, you cant even remember the exact things said.
Do you remember the hurt of a old relationship?
Do you care to dwell on the hateful moments of your past or step without care into new endeavors?
What is left to say when they say they love you but they can lose they self in it?
What is left to do but sit and think of love?
Love is a consistent struggle, with many ups and downs, but only tested by the downs and strengthen by the ability to continue up after hitting the bottom.
Love is selfish at moments but in true spirit should always be selfless, and is said with many phrase "Im sorry, your beautiful, and I'm still here"
Can you love someone fully if you have boundaries and limitations?
Can you truly had been loved if the person had limitations to the amount they were willing to give you?
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Relationships Are A Joke!
Relationships are a joke.
I'm done trying to be in one, I give up, and no I dont even feel like a quitter.
I feel like I escaped!!!!
Fuck the crying, the waiting, the wishing that the fight would end, fuck being considerate, fuck the moments of silent, fuck the being home before the sun is up, fuck the courtesy calls, fuck the breaksfast and the little things to remember, fuck the sharing of joyful moments, the happy dreams, the future, fuck being afraid of living life alone, fuck growing old with eachother, fuck family vacations, photos, and overrated weddings, fuck meeting ur parents, ur friends and coworkers, fuck sharing the remote and the mirror (sidenote: just move!!!!!!) fuck dinner and the movie, fuck the house, the two cars, the fence, and the 2.5 kids, fuck relationships, fuck u!
Now hand me a pair of six inche stilettos and let me diva my way out...
I'm done trying to be in one, I give up, and no I dont even feel like a quitter.
I feel like I escaped!!!!
Fuck the crying, the waiting, the wishing that the fight would end, fuck being considerate, fuck the moments of silent, fuck the being home before the sun is up, fuck the courtesy calls, fuck the breaksfast and the little things to remember, fuck the sharing of joyful moments, the happy dreams, the future, fuck being afraid of living life alone, fuck growing old with eachother, fuck family vacations, photos, and overrated weddings, fuck meeting ur parents, ur friends and coworkers, fuck sharing the remote and the mirror (sidenote: just move!!!!!!) fuck dinner and the movie, fuck the house, the two cars, the fence, and the 2.5 kids, fuck relationships, fuck u!
Now hand me a pair of six inche stilettos and let me diva my way out...
What's Up With Men?
Have women gained so much leeway in life that we arent the same creature GOD has made us.? I dont care how much success or barriers women break in life I still want to be treated and understood like a fucking female...Damn a "you look nice today" wouldnt kill you...sometimes a female would like to be reminded why you were interested in them in the first place...If I get brushed aside too much that "damn you look nice to today" coming from another man is going to start sounding two kinds of good....Here is some pointers to help you stay on your game....
Sensitive Thugs....You are the worst kind...stop fronting like you going kill me or anyone else for that matter....You talk so bad but your little feelings get hurt so fast it is ridiculous...Just because you out weigh a female or you might be a litttle cut up doesnt mean you get to talk reckless...You over reactions to the words of a female are signs of your insecurities....Learn to John Wayne a bitch, be smooth and cunning!!!
Arrogant Assholes....We get it already okay...You win....Your fly and all that shit but your attitude stinks....No one cares that you can out shine everyone in the room....No women will ever want to be in the same room as a man who thinks, shows, and tells you or makes you feel like they are pretty and smarter then you...ITS NOT ATTRACTIVE and to be honest its irritating....You have to make your a woman feel some kind of way and in order to do that you have to stop feeling yourself....
Mommas Precious....Damn okay...You LOVE YOUR MOMMA....I get it....But we would like for you to cut the fucking cord....She aint gonna die if you dont do it right that minute...
Compulsive Lairs.....If you havent realized this by now, "WE STOPPED LISTENING AND CARING about a year ago" Everyone knows you lying but clearly you....The bullshit you say holds no weight...Your voice hurts our ears because at first it is funny to hear you lie or over do it, but after a while it just gets fucking aggervating...And you are talked about and not in a good way....
So Your A Dickhead...You tend to talk without thinking...Instead of using your big brain you chose to use the little one...I chose not to write anything to this group because dick doesnt read and the brain doesnt do the thinking so it would a waste to even say anything at all....
THE FOLLOWERS....Stop running behind your friends....Damn your grown and no women wants a man who comes with fucking co-signers....I'ma need you to finish that thought without asking for the next line from boo the fool and them...They aint got no girl...So how they gonna tell you how to deal with one?...Use your noodle morons....If your are so into your friends you aint got no steady girlfriend and you are over the age of 30, good luck with that....cause your future is dim...
OH Really!! YOU JUST LOVE FASHION....and we are all just hating because you walk and sit like a fucking girl...Running to the mall to buy outfits... WHERE THE HELL IS MY BAG AT?... Oh you forgot it right!...You got opinions about my outfit, then Heidi Klum, and you got more clothes then me... You secretly love soap operas and reality tv shows... You ride more dick then Paris Hilton!!! YOU ARE GAY! Its okay... There is a whole world that is for you and the gay community is a loving, compassionate, catty, fashion forward one.. The sooner you get the hell out that closet you will be able to enjoy it....
The CHEATER!!!....FUCK YOU THE MOST....You keep the Health Clinic in business, with your nasty ass... Damn it, no matter if your slick or straight forward with it, I still hate you...Your dick aint the greatest by the way, you just think it is!! You so special then maybe you can tell us whats so great about HIV? Superman that hoe!
There are probably some I missed, but hey you get the just of it!
Sensitive Thugs....You are the worst kind...stop fronting like you going kill me or anyone else for that matter....You talk so bad but your little feelings get hurt so fast it is ridiculous...Just because you out weigh a female or you might be a litttle cut up doesnt mean you get to talk reckless...You over reactions to the words of a female are signs of your insecurities....Learn to John Wayne a bitch, be smooth and cunning!!!
Arrogant Assholes....We get it already okay...You win....Your fly and all that shit but your attitude stinks....No one cares that you can out shine everyone in the room....No women will ever want to be in the same room as a man who thinks, shows, and tells you or makes you feel like they are pretty and smarter then you...ITS NOT ATTRACTIVE and to be honest its irritating....You have to make your a woman feel some kind of way and in order to do that you have to stop feeling yourself....
Mommas Precious....Damn okay...You LOVE YOUR MOMMA....I get it....But we would like for you to cut the fucking cord....She aint gonna die if you dont do it right that minute...
Compulsive Lairs.....If you havent realized this by now, "WE STOPPED LISTENING AND CARING about a year ago" Everyone knows you lying but clearly you....The bullshit you say holds no weight...Your voice hurts our ears because at first it is funny to hear you lie or over do it, but after a while it just gets fucking aggervating...And you are talked about and not in a good way....
So Your A Dickhead...You tend to talk without thinking...Instead of using your big brain you chose to use the little one...I chose not to write anything to this group because dick doesnt read and the brain doesnt do the thinking so it would a waste to even say anything at all....
THE FOLLOWERS....Stop running behind your friends....Damn your grown and no women wants a man who comes with fucking co-signers....I'ma need you to finish that thought without asking for the next line from boo the fool and them...They aint got no girl...So how they gonna tell you how to deal with one?...Use your noodle morons....If your are so into your friends you aint got no steady girlfriend and you are over the age of 30, good luck with that....cause your future is dim...
OH Really!! YOU JUST LOVE FASHION....and we are all just hating because you walk and sit like a fucking girl...Running to the mall to buy outfits... WHERE THE HELL IS MY BAG AT?... Oh you forgot it right!...You got opinions about my outfit, then Heidi Klum, and you got more clothes then me... You secretly love soap operas and reality tv shows... You ride more dick then Paris Hilton!!! YOU ARE GAY! Its okay... There is a whole world that is for you and the gay community is a loving, compassionate, catty, fashion forward one.. The sooner you get the hell out that closet you will be able to enjoy it....
The CHEATER!!!....FUCK YOU THE MOST....You keep the Health Clinic in business, with your nasty ass... Damn it, no matter if your slick or straight forward with it, I still hate you...Your dick aint the greatest by the way, you just think it is!! You so special then maybe you can tell us whats so great about HIV? Superman that hoe!
There are probably some I missed, but hey you get the just of it!
Sweet Smell, Bad Taste
The sweet smell of romance has worn off and the contrasting taste has left bitterness in my mouth...The little commonsense I had left that wasnt flushed away by the caught up in the moment illusion was waving a flag of caution that I bypassed with out a glance to even read the warning...With ever action there is a reaction and, because I ran past that sign, I am now stuck here with the reality check learned the hard way...I am irate that I allowed the arrogant, ignorant, selfish, and rude behavior of this man to leave me in a numb state...
The words spoken by him that were to leave me feeling guilty or at fault and to give me a moment of clarity have only left me disappointed in him. Disappointed that he couldn't admire what he really had and who I really am...The shock of his unjusified and poor excuses have left me bitter, and surprised in the greatly stitched sheeps clothing...My friends will tell me that we all make mistakes but the pain this one has left behind is all over my face...Some mistakes no matter how big or small can do the same amount of damage and carry the same weight...The pain is the result of me being naive once again and breaking alittle piece off the assureness of what I thought I knew...Disappoinment in myself....
I have been told I am the worst of all kind...this is the lowest cut of all...The most pathetic excuse...I am a full woman, I work, go to school, take care of my child, I apologize when I'm wrong and accept them even if the person might not fully mean it, I never asked for diamonds and pearls, I never asked for a place to live, I never asked for a bill to be paid, a car to drive or a shirt to even wear, I never asked a favor, I was loyal even if we were just testing the waters, I never asked him to love me, and when I hit rock bottom I never asked him for help but I'm the worst kind...
I'll admit I'm embarrassed...I allowed myself to be taken away by his cunning representative and now I see him for who he really is and I feel disguised...Disguised that I let such a cold person in and ever touch me...Who can fault me? Its typical for a woman to meet a man and see all the good qualities that the ones before him shared and the great ones that set him apart bypassing the flaws the whole time...God made me woman....My attention is captured through my mind and I give people with my heart...Every once in awhile one slips past...Leaves me my mind in a clutter of unprocessable thoughts and my heart cracked...
He is still attractive to me, but in the week to come i will slowly open my eyes and see him for what he really was...And though I will never understand why he bothered to linger in my life with his fairytale lies and illusionist tricks, I know that I was a real person, sweet and all, and never once out of character...Maybe this is my Karma or maybe one day I will end up being his........
The words spoken by him that were to leave me feeling guilty or at fault and to give me a moment of clarity have only left me disappointed in him. Disappointed that he couldn't admire what he really had and who I really am...The shock of his unjusified and poor excuses have left me bitter, and surprised in the greatly stitched sheeps clothing...My friends will tell me that we all make mistakes but the pain this one has left behind is all over my face...Some mistakes no matter how big or small can do the same amount of damage and carry the same weight...The pain is the result of me being naive once again and breaking alittle piece off the assureness of what I thought I knew...Disappoinment in myself....
I have been told I am the worst of all kind...this is the lowest cut of all...The most pathetic excuse...I am a full woman, I work, go to school, take care of my child, I apologize when I'm wrong and accept them even if the person might not fully mean it, I never asked for diamonds and pearls, I never asked for a place to live, I never asked for a bill to be paid, a car to drive or a shirt to even wear, I never asked a favor, I was loyal even if we were just testing the waters, I never asked him to love me, and when I hit rock bottom I never asked him for help but I'm the worst kind...
I'll admit I'm embarrassed...I allowed myself to be taken away by his cunning representative and now I see him for who he really is and I feel disguised...Disguised that I let such a cold person in and ever touch me...Who can fault me? Its typical for a woman to meet a man and see all the good qualities that the ones before him shared and the great ones that set him apart bypassing the flaws the whole time...God made me woman....My attention is captured through my mind and I give people with my heart...Every once in awhile one slips past...Leaves me my mind in a clutter of unprocessable thoughts and my heart cracked...
He is still attractive to me, but in the week to come i will slowly open my eyes and see him for what he really was...And though I will never understand why he bothered to linger in my life with his fairytale lies and illusionist tricks, I know that I was a real person, sweet and all, and never once out of character...Maybe this is my Karma or maybe one day I will end up being his........
WORD PLAY
To Hate....
The people that scream people are hating do the most theirselves....Hate recognizes Hate....
To Love....
Seen more then said, and felt more then thought of.....
To Envy....
The people that envy you will stab you in the back.....
To Admire....
The ablitly to give prays without being scarcastic or judgmental
To be a Enemy...
People that carry tricks up their sleeves and wait like snakes in the grass....true colors will shine through in the end...Especially when you have a track record of being vindictive...
To be a Friend....
The people that lay in the grass with you ready to take on the world and have your back, even when you want to go at it alone...
To Be Jealous....
A trait not to be carried by a friend...people who are jealous of you secretly wish to be you....
To be Satisfied....
To move on past the bullshit and the irritations of humans....To breath easier in the morning and be willing to let go of unnessaray hurtful actions of others....
To be Young Minded....
To think at your grown age people hate you or hate on you...Its not that their hating you it's just them trying to hurt you...
To be Grown....
The ablity to speak your mind but also take personal critism...True personal cristism can only come from people that you feel know you the best and stick with you through the dumb shit of the world...
To be Judge and Jury....
You need all the evidence first and not just that of your own....
To be Understanding....
Not passing jugdment at all....Listen and take it in and just accept people for who they are and not change them...
To be Contridicting....
Not taking your own advice and still preach like you know something....
To Be Real....
An word that doesn't relate to HUMANS at all...We are all real...An adjective when being used to describe a person..You are being real fake, real compassionate, real understanding..like being a lot of something...You can never just be REAL...
To BE FAKE.....
To paint a face on that hides your true self that slowly but surely will wash off...
To be Honest....
My version of being what simple minded people think is being REAL...But if you give honesty you most be able to take it in return....You dont give honesty for the alteramotive of being hurtful...
TO be Helpful...
TO not keep count of all your good deeds...You do it without expecting something in return from that person, your reward comes in the ways God chooses to send it...Its not held against a person....
To BE ME....
Compassionate but not a push over...
Talkative but a DEEP thinker....
Apologitic if I truly believe I am wrong...
Wishy Washy with my time and life....
Opinionate but stands by them
Tempermental if pushed to breaking point
Quiet but never dormite...
Bitchy but never just a straight up bitch
Outspoken but not without thinking....
Hurtful but not Hateful....
Nosey which is coming to an end....
Gossip which has to stop....
GOD FEARING, because I know HE is real....
Sexual but NEVER been a SLUT....
Sure of myself but not so much I'm bossy..
Open minded but not to the point that I'm gullible....
Sensitive but only towards the ones I love...
Mistake maker of somethings I cant take back....
This is me to sum it up....A little bit more maybe
The people that scream people are hating do the most theirselves....Hate recognizes Hate....
To Love....
Seen more then said, and felt more then thought of.....
To Envy....
The people that envy you will stab you in the back.....
To Admire....
The ablitly to give prays without being scarcastic or judgmental
To be a Enemy...
People that carry tricks up their sleeves and wait like snakes in the grass....true colors will shine through in the end...Especially when you have a track record of being vindictive...
To be a Friend....
The people that lay in the grass with you ready to take on the world and have your back, even when you want to go at it alone...
To Be Jealous....
A trait not to be carried by a friend...people who are jealous of you secretly wish to be you....
To be Satisfied....
To move on past the bullshit and the irritations of humans....To breath easier in the morning and be willing to let go of unnessaray hurtful actions of others....
To be Young Minded....
To think at your grown age people hate you or hate on you...Its not that their hating you it's just them trying to hurt you...
To be Grown....
The ablity to speak your mind but also take personal critism...True personal cristism can only come from people that you feel know you the best and stick with you through the dumb shit of the world...
To be Judge and Jury....
You need all the evidence first and not just that of your own....
To be Understanding....
Not passing jugdment at all....Listen and take it in and just accept people for who they are and not change them...
To be Contridicting....
Not taking your own advice and still preach like you know something....
To Be Real....
An word that doesn't relate to HUMANS at all...We are all real...An adjective when being used to describe a person..You are being real fake, real compassionate, real understanding..like being a lot of something...You can never just be REAL...
To BE FAKE.....
To paint a face on that hides your true self that slowly but surely will wash off...
To be Honest....
My version of being what simple minded people think is being REAL...But if you give honesty you most be able to take it in return....You dont give honesty for the alteramotive of being hurtful...
TO be Helpful...
TO not keep count of all your good deeds...You do it without expecting something in return from that person, your reward comes in the ways God chooses to send it...Its not held against a person....
To BE ME....
Compassionate but not a push over...
Talkative but a DEEP thinker....
Apologitic if I truly believe I am wrong...
Wishy Washy with my time and life....
Opinionate but stands by them
Tempermental if pushed to breaking point
Quiet but never dormite...
Bitchy but never just a straight up bitch
Outspoken but not without thinking....
Hurtful but not Hateful....
Nosey which is coming to an end....
Gossip which has to stop....
GOD FEARING, because I know HE is real....
Sexual but NEVER been a SLUT....
Sure of myself but not so much I'm bossy..
Open minded but not to the point that I'm gullible....
Sensitive but only towards the ones I love...
Mistake maker of somethings I cant take back....
This is me to sum it up....A little bit more maybe
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